Day 53: Sleeping in

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sleep in when the duties of life call and I am required to wake up and complete whatever tasks are required to be done in the name of life

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to use the excuse and justification of ‘I need sleep’ and ‘sleeping more will help me do better with the things I need to do when I wake up’ as justifications and seemingly plausible reasons for why I should sleep in which is just a desire in laziness to not move myself

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to sleep in because I fear that if I do not get enough sleep, I will be less because of it and will not be able to handle my daily activities, not being self honest in realizing that if I breathe and direct myself, I will be able to effectively participate in my daily activities and that I do not require to fear not sleeping because when my daily activities/responsibilities are met and completed, there will be time to sleep

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that sleeping in is a way of life of laziness wherein one will waste their time lost in energy wherein they are unable to move and direct themselves and that sleeping in is able to become another vehicle of laziness where I would rather not go and live and apply myself in life but instead just sleep and be lazy and get lost in good feelings of laziness as if it is like some kind of perceptual experience where I feel/believe I am free

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not realize that sleep is simply a function of the body as a requirement to live and exist and that the context of sleeping as with all ways of existence should be to live a life that is best for all and as such, sleep should be defined/utilized within this context – purely a requirement to rest the busy so that I may continue to live and apply myself in ways that is best for all life

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to prioritize sleeping in over doing that which is best for all, not realizing that to be awake is what give me the real opportunity to live and do what is best for all in every moment and that I may not use sleeping in as the excuse to justify laziness as apparently enabling me to do what is best for all effectively – but rather to always prioritize doing what is best for all life first and then, when I have first done this as my priority, then I may consider and give myself the right to rest

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see that sleeping in is the result of staying up late and that staying up late is the result of not doing what is necessary to be done as that which is best for all life as I am not at peace/not satisfied with myself and am still waiting for myself to stand up and be fulfilled

 

I commit myself to use sleep within the context of what is best – as a way of supporting the body and not feeding the mind with energy so that my body may serve life in living in a way that is best for all

 

I commit myself to always prioritize doing that which is best for all as my self responsibility to sort myself/my world out before sleeping, and only when I am truly satisfied that I have done this, will I allow myself to sleep and rest the body, only so that I may continue to live my self responsibility again as that which is best for all life

 

I commit myself to limit my sleep so that I do not become addicted to sleeping and to ensure that I am always ready to rise again to the task of that which is necessary to be done as living in a way that is best for all life and once I am satisfied with this, rest the body as it is required

 

I commit myself to no longer fear not getting enough sleep but rather to “fear” not doing that which is best for all as this is the only real thing worth “fearing” and in this way, do what is necessary to be done so that I am satisfied and live without fear so that I may rest in peace

 

I commit myself to stop sleeping in as a habit of laziness that is justified by the apparent need to sleep when life needs support as life is in critical condition

 

I commit myself to stop feeding my mind with sleep as sleeping in and to push myself to get up as this is a test of will as to whether I am willing to stand and direct myself and do what is best for life and that I do not require to fear not sleeping as when I stop feeding the mind energy with sleep, though things may become more difficult, this is always the prime opportunity to stand up, face myself sort myself out – by seeing who I am when I stop feeding my addictions