Dayb 19: Love as Friction and Separation

I forgive myself that I have allowed myself to disappoint myself with false expectations of myself and others of an experience of ourselves wherein my feelings and desires are fed through an experience wherein myself and another bask in our accepted and allowed self defined separation as male and female and apparently being different, within which we experience the friction of love as a novelty experience due to our accepted and allowed separation

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from women

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe the friction of separation between myself and another as a woman to be love

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that love can exist in separation

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to see that I have created a NOVELty our of my accepted and allowed separation from another as a woman like a romance novel and within this novelty as separation and the belief that we are different and do not understand each other, believe the friction that we experience to be real and give it beautiful sounding names like love and happiness when I do not in fact question the nature and reality within which this love has been defined

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe feelings of love to be real

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to think and believe that I am able to find love within the self abandonment of searching for another to complete me within the belief that the inferiority and despair and low self esteem that I experience is actually who I am, not realizing I have accepted and allowed myself to belief in and exist as inferior/’less than’ life

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to separate myself from live as a character as the ‘male’ character that is defined by ‘masculine’ attributes that are used to define my self image and self worth based in a world system where I must define myself in some way as a commodity to have worth in the eyes of the system to be able to survive

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to compromise my own self worth, self recognition and self validation through seeking self worth, self recognition and self validation in the eyes of another as a woman as a judgment upon me

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to sell myself out to the deception of beauty and love as symbolized in the image of a ‘beautiful’/’attractive’ woman as per societies definition that I have merely recognized, adopted and abided by

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear giving up ‘love’ and ‘sex as the ultimate energetic experience

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to see and realize the self deception of the fear of giving up love and sex as I have defined it for fear that I may not experience this energy high again, seeing and defining this act of letting go and self forgiveness as ‘a bad thing’ and something I should fear losing, not seeing, realizing and understanding that in fact what I fear giving up is the illusion through which I have deceived, limited and enslaved myself

 

I commit myself to give up love and sex as the ultimate energetic experience through the stopping of participation in love/romantic/sexual experiences that are based in separation to another

 

I commit myself to stop using love, sex and romantic experiences/relationships with females to further define and reinforce my own self definition as a man as masculine as a point of self definition as self limitation within the fear of not surviving

 

I commit myself to stop creating friction between myself and others as women through separation as self definitions and judgments

 

I commit myself to recognize, validate, give worth to and be intimate with myself in self honesty and self intimacy in writing, and allow myself to see, realize, understand and exist as a physical being that is complete here as the physical and do not require a mind as energy to exist as I am life

 

I commit myself to accept myself as life, one and equal

Advertisements

Day 18: Money, money, money…

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to allow money and power to determine my relationships as who I will interact with and who I will not, based on defining people and their worth on how they may be an asset to me in my quest for money and power

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to live for the attainment of money and power and the quest to attain money and power within the belief that if I attain money as power in my world, that I will be able to enjoy the things that I believe I am ‘missing out on’ and have the control and experiences in my life that I believe only money and power will bring me as I have deceived myself in believing that money will fulfill me as the belief that money is the only means through which I am able to enjoy myself and access and experience life

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to separate myself from life and experiencing myself as self expression through the belief that I must attain money – as much of it as possible – to access and enjoy myself and my world and express myself

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that I am able to live and exist as who I am as life without the mind as the desire for money and power as part of living and expressing myself as life within and as oneness and equality is the consideration that I simply require money as a means to an end to sustain me within the context of creating a self and a world that is best for all where all may be sustained equally effectively by an Equal Money System

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to use and define and apply money within the context of what is best for all life – and not to give myself a pleasurable experience where I am able to delude myself and elude self responsibility through buying a pleasurable experience of myself similar to a drug induced experience

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted allowed myself to use money to get the kind of pleasurable experience that I as a mind consciousness system desire to be able to escape the reality of myself and believe that everything is ok and I am enjoying myself and happy when in fact I am fucked within and as a mind consciousness system born of a world that does not value, understand or recognize what life really is as the physical

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to allow the amount of money I possess to determine who I am and what I will do within the belief that money will buy me happiness and complete and fulfill me and through defining myself self worth as the potential to be able to live and enjoy myself through money

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to always want and desire to accumulate and keep a certain amount of money to always keep open and have the possibility  of being able to easily buy another dose of happiness as all of the things that money is able to buy that I believe will make me happy and fulfill me through sensory, pleasurable experiences which I create an energetic mind relationship to within the  belief that I am happy and enjoying myself and that this is who I am

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to define my worth and the worth of others and the potential to be happy, live and enjoy myself on money and the  money I have as the numerical value that is given to me by the system and represent me in the eyes of the system

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that money is a reflection of who I am and who others are

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear letting money go, spending money and not having money as the fear that if I do not have enough, I will not be able to live, enjoy and express myself

 

I commit myself to stop defining my self-worth and the worth of others based on money

 

I commit myself to enjoy, live and express myself as who I am as life within the context of oneness and equality as the consideration of all life here as the physical, and no longer determine my enjoyment, what I will do and who I will be on money as the value I believe I have and the potential of personal enjoyment and happiness which is bought through money

 

I commit myself to see and realize that money can not buy me happiness

 

I commit myself to use money in a way that is best for all life within the commitment of using and redefining money in a way that will serve all life equally as using money as a means to an end to bring about an equal money system where all life may live in dignity with the opportunity to realize and express itself

 

I commit myself to use money within the context of supporting what is best for all life here as the physical

 

I commit myself to stop allowing money and the fear of not having money to determine who I am and how I live

 

I commit myself to stop using money as a way of escaping myself and my reality as the truth of myself and stand and remain here within and as breath and face myself as who I am and what I have become in every moment

 

Day 17: The Sacred Symbolism of Self Enslavement

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that I enjoy the experience of seeing others within a position of absolute enslavement that is specific to my own design of self enslavement and the enslavement of others, wherein the enslavement may not be ‘obvious’ as per the definition of enslavement that exist within and as the mind as literal images of shackled people and other instance of enslavement that is imprinted through movies/books/magazines/other media to only define enslavement within and as a handful of forms – and instead see how the experience of seeing others enslaved within and as certain specific ways may be subtle and not obvious to the conscious mind as they are symbolically reflecting my own self enslavement, which I then do not see and willfully participate in as the belief that I am enjoying such experiences of others being enslaved and enjoy within the belief of the mind that I am gaining something as power/control over another when in fact it is my own mind relishing in its own enslavement of self as who I really am as life as a living, breathing physical being and that within the essence of how this works it is always the mind that is enjoying this experience of seeing/witnessing/observing enslavement over the physical whether it is in the instance of or reflective of my own enslavement or the enslavement of another – they are both one and the same

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to base the attractiveness, value and worth of other beings within my existence on certain characteristics/behaviors/attributes that symbolize/are representative of that which will appeal to me as an indication of another’s potential as a candidate to be enslaved by my mind – preferably as easily and willingly as possible – so that I may experience what I believe I enjoy as gaining power/energy over/from another – not realizing that in fact this  enjoyment is not me as who I am as life as a physical, living, breathing being as the flesh, but rather as a parasitic energetic entity known as the mind/consciousness which requires the enslavement/submission/conformity of the physical to be able to generate energy for its continued and sustained existence as an illusionary reality

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to create fantasies, dreams and hopes of a ‘perfect relationship’ with another/others in my world within the context of my own minds fulfillment as energy, and to project this fantasy/hope/dream onto others who I have assessed as potential candidates for this excursion – whether these others I observe in my physical world or am simply looking for my minds projection within and as the physical world – and within this, endlessly and constantly search to find this ‘perfect candidate(s)’ and attempt to create and fulfill this fantasy/dream/hope/illusion through the people, places, things and experiences which I have assessed are most likely to/have the most potential to fulfill these mind fantasies and feed my mind energy, wherein I have profiled and defined everything in my world simply within this context of feeding the mind energy to sustain it

 

I commit myself to stop feeding my desire of the perfect/ultimate energy fulfillment experience/fantasy through continuously seeking potential candidates that I am able to enslave and control within the context of fulfilling these dreams/fantasies/hopes by creating and entire world that is based within this one principle/desire, wherein all that I have deemed as having value and worth is only within the context of this fantasy/dream/hope that completely disregard all life and do not consider what is real – including even myself as a physical, living, breathing being – but instead only exist to fulfill and sustain an energetic entity/as the mind/consciousness so that it may continue its delusion, self fulfilling, spiteful existence as the expense, deterioration and diminishment of the physical that does not serve life as the physical as what is real in any way whatsoever

 

I commit myself to stop seeking out that in my world which I deem has the most potential to bring me a certain specific energetic experience of myself as the mind that is in fact based in inferiority and self abandonment so that I may continue to spite myself as the original sin of self spite of self abandonment/inferiority, covered up by the fantasy/dream/escape of a ‘higher’ experience of myself where I believe I am not this self definition that I have already created of myself as inferiority/self abandonment where I have not valued/honored myself as life as who I am as a physical, living, breathing being

 

I commit myself to stop projecting and enslaving myself to my already created and defined idea/pictures/definitions of the ‘perfect’ fantasy/dream/escape/reality that exist and have been reinforced and imprinted within and as my mind through experiences that I have come to believe I enjoy and define as part of who I am, and using such projected images/ideas/fantasies/illusiory realities in my mind to further enslave myself by believing that I want and desire and enjoy experiencing these experiences of projecting and feeding and living within such fantasies/dreams/illusory realities as such ideas of the mind that I have come to define and ingrain in my mind as good and enjoyable and fun through experience and repetition

 

I commit myself to be patient and gentle with myself and stop self judgment within and as this process of self change/self realization, within the understanding and consideration that I have existed this way for quite some time and have engrained the mind within and as me this way extensively, and thus it is common sense that it will take time for me to see/realize/understand/stop and change who I am in the process of self correction and that the tendency to give up is simply my mind using the extent of desire/ingrained experiences to experience an experience of ‘overwhelmingness’ and fear to justify and reason why I should give up on myself and simply continue destroying myself and feeding the mind energy as the ultimate statement of self abandonment and self spite

Day 16: Insomnia as addiction to the mind

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to embrace myself in self honesty as myself, within the simplicity of and as existing here as silence of mind, here in breath as the physical and within this self limitation, existed within and as the fear based hellish reality that is the mind where I am unable to relax, rest and be at peace with myself

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to deceive myself with the illusion of entertainment that there is something ‘better out there’ or ‘more fun’ than existing here as the physical as breath and within this engrained belief, go searching within the realm of thought and the mind to look for answers to my desires and an experience of myself that is apparently ‘higher than’ me, here as a physical life form

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that I’ve allowed myself to give more worth and value to a self deceptive illusory reality that I have created as the mind than the actual real reality where I live and exist and am able to actually support and enjoy myself as the physical

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to deceive myself through believing and defining enjoyment as existent within the mind as thoughts, pictures, and feelings that entertain me when in fact there is nothing more enjoyable/no higher experience than supporting myself as the physical, here as breath in doing what is required to support and sustain the physical which allow me to live and experience and enjoy myself

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to become intimate with myself in stopping the mind and simply breathing, within and as the experience of supporting and nurturing the physical body by fulfilling the needs and requirements of the physical as rest and sleep

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed insomnia to exist by creating insomnia as my experience through becoming so addicted to the energy of the mind that my mind is continually racing with thoughts and energy that it has become a normal experience that I am accustomed so that when I require to sleep, I am addicted to this energy and these feelings and pictures and thoughts as entertainment that I cannot simply stop, slow down and enjoy myself by resting the body in silence here as breath

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to become so preoccupied with the racing energy of thoughts as entertainment that I am unable to slow down and enjoy myself within and as self movement/self direction that emerge from the darkness and silence of myself as a physical being that breathe only

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that I am not the mind – I am physical being – and that within this, I have not accepted who I really am as a physical being of darkness and silence

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear not being able to sleep, only because I believe that I must live and abide by a certain time schedule, not realizing that not sleeping is rather an issue of self facing self and that I must change myself not to abide by some law of the mind where I must abide by time and be awake/be asleep at certain times simply because everyone else does, but rather because it is about me limiting me from relaxing and enjoying me simply because I am so addicted to the mind that I am unable to actually love myself through physical self support

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear not sleeping and that I have not realized that there is no reason to fear not sleeping, but that I must simply stop creating the cause that is preventing me from sleeping which is my mind as my addiction to my own mental reality where I have deceived myself into believing that I will enjoy myself and have a higher/better experience of myself there – not realizing that I only believe this because I have never known/never allowed myself to see and learn what real physical love/support means as stopping the addiction the illusory self deceptive, limiting reality that is the mind

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to see and realize that there can be no real self love/self support within and as the mind as the nature of the creation of the mind was self deception as self illusion and self delusion to have a higher experience/idea of myself as ego to compensate for the horrible/inferior experience of myself that I have come to believe is me as part of life

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to think and believe that having to go to sleep is not fun and like a death in a way, when in fact I only fear giving up my illusory reality of entertainment which I have become addicted to which does not support me in any way whatsoever, and that I have deceived myself into believing that that which does not support me in any way is me and what I desire, want and need

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that what I believe to be giving up everything as the mind, is not real and that in fact in giving up the mind, I am giving up nothing but an illusion, for everything as I embrace everything and all life as me as I embrace/exist as the physical

I commit myself to stop insomnia by silencing my mind as letting go of the entertainment of the thoughts, feelings and pictures as energy that I have become addicted to.

I commit myself to show myself, learn and see what real self support and self enjoyment is as stopping the mind sufficiently to be able to enjoy the silence of myself as self direction/self movement/self support/self love, in simply doing what is necessary to support the physical body

I commit myself to support myself as the physical body by embracing the silence/darkness that is me here as breath as a physical being and letting go of the entertainment/illusory reality of the mind

I commit myself to stop and give up my addiction to the mind as entertainment as energy as pictures, thoughts, feelings and emotions and to realize that it is not real, that it is not who I really am as life

I commit myself to prove to my self and show myself and see that what I have defined as ‘letting go of’ or ‘losing something’ as the mind is not in fact giving up anything but my own self delusion/self sabotage/self deception as if it were some kind of deal, when in fact this death is not real and is only the death of the mind as the death of my own imprisonment/possession/self deception/self illusion

Day 15: Self direction in every moment

I forgive myself that I have not allowed myself to dedicate and commit myself fully to a process of self correction through self honesty and self forgiveness that exist here within and as every moment of every breath as the entirety of me

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed moments to pass wherein I am not undertaking the task of stopping the old habits/patterns that I exist as as the mind, using various justifications, reasons and excuses as to why I can afford to overlook that which I exist as and participate within it while completely disregarding the current state of damnation that my world as myself is existent within

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that for every moment that passes that I am not directing myself, there will be a consequence and for every moment that I am not here within and as breath directing myself, there will be an accumulation of consequences that manifest as an even greater fuck up that affect not only me but others as well

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that when I allow myself to submit to the control/influence/desires of others, that although it may appear that I am appeasing them/satisfying them/making them happy, I am in fact doing them a disservice as life and deceiving them through participating within and reinforcing their own self deception of wanting and desiring power and control where they have not allowed themselves to stand and realize themselves as life in self honesty

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to use the excuse of the idea of this process/application being ‘too big’ or ‘too difficult’ or ‘too impossible’ to sabotage myself from not applying myself here in every moment of every breath and that through this fear of doing what is necessary to be done is only a self deceptive mirror reflection of the actual consequences of what will happen if I do not apply myself in my process

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to ignore the inevitability that, If I allow myself to not direct myself and be directed/influenced by the will/desires/wants of others based within their own self-dishonesties, that I am going to become angry at myself and become a nasty human being who rages and throws violent tantrums because I was dishonest with myself that I did not stand and insist that I live and breathe here as myself within and as self direction as what is best for all life

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to see that what is best for all is best for self and that to apply myself in creating a world that is best for all life in every moment is creating a world that is best for myself in every moment

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that I am unable to direct myself in every moment within breath, here as myself as the physical body, if I am allowing myself to participate within and as thoughts, feelings and emotions and that I am unable to direct myself from the starting point of energy as a thought/feeling/emotion or as knowledge, as I am not a thought, I am not a feeling, I am not an emotion, I am not knowledge – but rather these are the aspects of myself that I have created through my own self dishonesty in defining/limiting/reducing/diminishing myself to an idea or ideas of the mind

 

I commit myself to direct myself in every moment of every breath through and as a process of self correction through self forgiveness and self honesty, lived and applied through self writing, and see and realize the effects of this and what the consequences of not doing this are only causing harm to myself and others as I am submitting myself to a system that direct, control and influence me to exist in a way that is not best for all life, known as so-called ‘self interest’

I communicate myself to apply myself in every moment of my process consistently to see the effect that this will have in my life and the life of others until I have shown and proven to myself that this is in fact what is best for all life beyond the shadow of a doubt

I commit myself to stop submitting myself to the desires/wants/control of others as energy to in fact assist and support myself to see clearly and become the self directive principle of myself as life, and in turn assist and support others to direct, assist and support themselves in self honesty as the opportunity within not participating within the wants/desires/control of others is the opportunity to show and reflect to them who they are as the mind and what is possible as who they are as life

I commit myself to stop using others by influencing/controlling them to feed and fulfill my desires and my own self dishonesties which will then allow me to free myself and be able to direct myself within the experience of others attempting to control and influence me through their own desires

I commit myself to do what is best for self as all as one as equal

I commit myself to stop existing/living/acting/making decisions from the starting point of me as mind as energy as my thoughts/feelings and emotions and remain clear that I am existing/acting/living/making decisions as myself here as breath, within and as the physical, one and equal, to see and show myself that it is possible to live and exist without the mind and to see who I am when I am not dependent on my mind as my desires as my thoughts/feelings and emotions to exist and live

Day 14 – Subjugating myself and others to my desires

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to place value on others purely based on how I as the mind am able to see their ability to serve me in feeding my energetic addiction and satisfying my desires

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to enslave others to my desires by purely seeing them as an energy source or a servant or a slave to feed my ego energy, and placing all value and creating all judgments and definitions of them based on this sole principle

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to place worth and value on others and their skills/abilities/attribute/characteristics/personalities based purely on how they are able to serve me and comply to me by feeding my addiction to energy

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that I as the world have created an entire system that do not value life in any way and rather only sees the human as a commodity whose only purpose is to serve the wants and desires of the greedy

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to want and desire to enslave others to my wants, needs and desires as my addiction to energy within the belief and perception that I am apparently having fun and enjoying myself or happy, when in fact I am only further deluding myself by reinforcing my addictions and diminishing who I am as life as I am purely reinforcing, feeding and sustaining a lifeless system that destroy myself and others as life in every way

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to lie to myself and deceive myself when using myself or others or animals or plants or other things to feed my desires, wants and needs as my addictions within the belief that I am having fun, happy and enjoying myself, when in fact I am only reinforcing self beliefs of inferiority, hopelessness and various fears through trying to escape them and within that, making the living statement that I am giving up, am not able to change and that my fears, self beliefs of inferiority and hopelessness are real and greater/more powerful than me

 

I commit myself to stop placing value on those around me, based purely on the potential I see to feed my desires as my addiction to energy, and accordingly create all definitions/ideas/perceptions/beliefs/values of others based on this sole principle

I commit myself to stop enslaving others to my desires to feed my energy addiction through expecting or convincing others to feed this energy addiction and using manipulation and suggestion to coerce them into doing such.

I commit myself to study myself and the world around me in self honesty sufficiently to see, understand and realize the connection between my own desires through which I bind and enslave myself and others and the world system of abuse where millions upon millions are enslaved in a system that feed the energetic desires of the rich and greedy such as myself and to see how I am directly contributing this abusive system, so that I may stop

I commit myself to self honestly investigate, realize and consider the belief that I am enjoying myself through feeding my energetic addictions is in fact an act of self deception, and learn what it means to actually enjoy self and live a fulfilled, dignified life when I am not dependent on happiness and enjoyment through the enslavement and subjugation of others

I commit myself to stop a lifestyle/pattern/habitual behavior of continuously giving up on myself and selling myself out within the belief that I require energy to live and feel good and enjoy myself, which is attained through experiences/relationships with others, specifically as the women in my life as romantic/sexual relationships

Day 13: “I Will Always be there for you”

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to speak and live the words “I will always be there for you” as a statement of self enslavement to a system of dependency that I have created where I have allowed myself to become dependant on energy as attention, feelings and emotions of others through associating these things with survival in believing that these things are required to be able to survive and exist

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to appease and feed the desires of others who are addicted to energy by speaking/living the words ‘I will always be there for you’ within the belief that I am apparently helping them or making them happy or loving them – when in fact I am doing this so that I am feeding my own addiction to energy, creating the perfect system of self enslavement for both of us where we are committed to feeding each others addiction to energy

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to enslave myself by dedicating myself to ‘always be there’ for another or others as a deceptive and manipulative statement to appease them and their desires to experience energy and fears of losing energy – because I myself would like them to ‘always be there for me’ as enslaving them to always serve my mind/ego in dedicating themselves to feed my own desires as energy addiction

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to reinforce the self- belief of others that they are not complete, are flawed, inferior, not sufficient, not capable and thus require me to help and save them as a savior as I myself have lived this self belief of myself and also believed that I believe and require a savior

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that when I do not get what I expect and desire as a dependency I’ve created on others for energy – that I am apparently being ‘not cared for’ and ‘not supported’ and being ‘hurt’ as my ego/mind throws a temper tantrum when I do not get what I want and desire

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that when I do not feed the expectations of others by feeding them energy through finding ways of generating energy within them – that I believe I am ‘hurting’ them or ‘not supporting them when in fact feeding the energy addictions of others is abuse in supporting their own self created enslavement as the addiction to energy as thoughts, emotions and feelings

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that my fear of others becoming angry at me for me not feeding their energy addictions or reacting the way they would like me to – is in fact based in my own desire to have people feed my energy addiction and react the way I would like them to because if they do not I will become angry at them and use anger and intimidation as a way of getting them to fall back in line with what I desire

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to seek to generate energy as thoughts, feelings and emotions in others as a way of manipulating them to get what I desire as power and control over them

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to fear not experiencing this ‘love’ and ‘care’ and ‘help’ from others as I have defined it as getting the attention of others to be able to generate energy as thoughts, feelings and emotions within myself

 

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that I require energy and relationships that feed my energy addiction to be able to exist and enjoy myself

 

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that within the statement ‘I will always be there for you’ I am in fact stating that I will never be HERE as life as long as I am committed to being THERE for another or the idea of another that I have created

 

I commit myself to discover real self love and enjoyment through stopping my addiction to energy and seeking out others to create relationships and interactions that generate energy within me as thoughts, feelings and emotions

I commit myself to discipline myself to do what it takes – whatever is necessary – to stop my addiction to energy and support myself in establishing myself as life as breath here in the physical

I commit myself to stop enslaving myself to energy addiction through relationships that are based on energy addiction wherein we both live the statement ‘I will always be there for you’ as the commitment to feeding each others addiction to energy

I commit myself to stop using words and statements that trigger thoughts, feelings and emotions in others as a way of manipulating and controlling them to get the energy that I desire

I commit myself to stop being angry when another does not feed my energy addiction and understand that this is a gift and thus the best gift that I am also able to give to another

I commit myself to understand and live the understanding that energy is not life, is not love, is not enjoyment, and to see that real life, love and enjoyment can only begin when I stop feeding my addiction to energy and the addiction to energy of others