Day 65: Is this all that there is? Pt. 2

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I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that all there is to life is to live for my own self interest, experience and entertainment, to only fulfill myself and only be concerned with myself

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that that which I have experienced in my life experience, is all that there is  to be experienced in my life as projecting my past onto the future as repeated patterns, as a life lived in self interest – not realizing that this has only been my experience and that just because this is all I’ve ever known, does not mean that this is all that is possible

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to limit myself to my life experience as knowledge of what life is as continued patterns lived of addictions/habits

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give up on myself in believing that what I have experienced/become is all that is possible in this world of life and I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not realize that to allow myself to continue to remain stuck within past patterns/habits/addictions is the living statement of giving up on myself and accepting within myself the belief that this is all there is that is possible in life

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to investigate/try to understand life and what is possible in life and how I will direct myself in life – through and as the mind – as the mind is only able to project what it understand as knowledge of patterns of how life apparently works which it will then attempt to project into the future in an attempt to direct self – not realizing that this is in fact mind control

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to believe that life is boring through limiting my understanding of life to the mind, not realizing that all experiences of boredom are created through and by the mind by allowing self to be trapped in limited patterns of the mind

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not realize that fear is an inevitable experience as a way of life when I have accepted and allowed myself to be limited to patterns of the mind as I have trapped myself into a creation that is not real that will inevitably end – yet I have deliberately trapped myself in this creation in self interest and within this, will always fear losing this creation as the deeper awareness exists that this is just an illusory creation and thus will inevitably come to an end – and that I have really reduced to myself to nothing more than an idea as a mind consciousness system of knowledge and information which has consequences that are inevitably experienced that are to be feared

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see that living only for my own self interest is not ‘all there is’ to life, through not allowing myself to actually step out of the patterns of my own self interest in my day to day living as this is the only way to see what is really possible as life in this world – to give up the old life of self interest and live life here breath by breath as a physical being that consider all life equally through standing as part of the physical reality, one and equal

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that consciousness as thoughts/the mind is extremely limited and is not life

 

I forgive myself that I haven’t dedicated and challenged myself to break out of my own mind as living old habits/patterns/addictions

 

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to not see and realize that living in habits/patterns where I am directed by my own thoughts as self interest is possession and mind control and that I am not in fact in charge, directing myself here – thus, how can this be called life, let alone accepted as ‘all that there is’ to life?

 

In part 3 of this blog I will be continuing with the necessary self corrective statements on this point

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