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Day 326: The value of ranting and raving

 

Tonight I began working on a ‘mind construct’ – this is a technique used to deconstruct the knowledge and information of the kind which comprises the beliefs, opinions, ideas and perceptions that exist in the mind which create what is referred to as the ‘mind consciousness system’ – here I am using specific terminology that I have learned through the Desteni I Process. It is a self help and life coaching course which teaches practical tools which one can use to deconstruct their own mind, to be able to life a life if clarity that is not directed and controlled by the mind as the mind has been created and programmed by us with the influence and taint of our society and culture. A ‘mind construct’ is an invaluable tool that allows one to look at themselves in a way that is not biased and takes real work here in the physical – no guessing games or spiritual tricks, it is real technical/mechanical stuff.

 

The first part of doing a mind construct is simply to rant and rave – to let the mind rant and rave about whatever the point is that one is facing. The purpose of this is to provide one with the real, candid stuff of the mind, which one can then use and utilize as the content that of the mind that will be worked with and deconstructed. This is the part of the mind construct I have worked on tonight.

 

As usual, the ranting and raving provided me with an initial sense of relief, of just being able to ‘speak my mind’ in a way where I am not suppressing myself or hiding from myself or fearing how I might be judged. It is rare in this world that we give ourselves moments in our lives where we can be truly open and candid. But one of the other reasons we do not do this is the fact that we fear what we will uncover and discover – because everyone knows the truth of themselves is not so nice.

 

But this fear of ranting and raving, this fear of facing ourselves only comes from a perspective of not knowing how to deal with it, not knowing how to change it – we fear that when we rant and rave, it will be from a starting point of believing in what we are ranting and raving about, and thus may be further influenced by that mentality if we rant and rave – therefore not having the self trust, self-assurance and fearlessness of knowing that whatever it is that we uncover/discover: we can correct it, we can change it. This is understandable – we are taught in every possible way to not focus on ourselves, to not be insightful, to focus only on the superficial and the world around us – and if one does happen to be insightful and want to investigate themselves deeper, we are certainly not given any tools with which we can correct and direct that which we uncover/discover within ourselves.

 

But this education now here, if one is looking for it, in the Desteni I Process, or even DIP Lite, which is completely free. There are those out there who have the know-how and the willingness to teach and support others because they themselves have made a commitment to themselves to support themselves and other to make this world a place that is best for all life. There is no more reason to run, to hide, to fear, to avoid, to suppress, to judge – the solution and the tools are here – we simply have to be willing to give those tools to ourselves, to give ourselves back to ourselves, to realize that – even if don’t know yet – there is something more to this life than what we have accepted and allowed – will we accept and allow ourselves to go further and dig deeper? That is a question that we owe it to ourselves to answer with great care and consideration.

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Day 224: Clinging on to positivity part 2

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to give a positive energetic charge to that which I see as contributing to my own personal survival – whether it be the things I say, how I appear or present myself to others, the things I do or accomplish, the things I write, the people around me, the things in my environment and the places and the environment that I am in – limiting myself to an existence of survival where I am then moving between points which I see as positive and negative and never actually standing here, stable as breath

I commit myself to stop ‘talking up’ and giving extra positive value to things, people, places, experiences and events in my world as a form of inflating my own ego, in the attempt to create a sense of self/life that is better than it is in fact as a form of wanting to escape/not face/not take responsibility for my reality

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that pride is my downfall, and that pride is only created through identifying myself/my life as positive and within this, the fear of loss is created where I fear to lose that which I am defining as positive

I commit myself to stand stable in the face of stimulation as that which I see as positive/contributing to my survival

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize that by creating something positive out of/giving a positive energetic charge to things in my reality is a trap where I then become stuck and limited to that which I see as positive, as this value judgment is rooted in fear of the negative of my reality and eventually turns into an obsession, the further I travel down this road of believing/perceiving/convincing myself of the positivity that I have attached to things in my world – whether it be myself, others people, places or things.

When and as I see myself obsessing over/thinking about/trying to create/trying to attract the positive – I stop, I breathe – I let go of my desire as it is in fact rooted in fear, belief and escapism and I do not participate in this desire/obsession

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to actually enjoy life and every moment here by assessing self honestly what my priorities are and thus what is necessary to be done here in the moment, and simply going into it physically and within this, allowing myself to enjoy my reality and not try to attract the positive but simply live and experience all facets of life, without expectation, pre-judgment or preference

I commit myself to let go of the bias of that which I tend to define as positive and within this, stop obsessing over the positive and give myself the strength as clarity to stand here alone, embracing myself, accepting myself and stopping all fears that I will be alone/lost/have a bad experience of myself

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to realize and understand that it is that which I desire as the positive that is making my life a struggle, and the foolishness of the belief that these things will ‘make me happy’ that is based on memories of enjoyment in the past which I associate with these things in my life

I commit myself to walk through the fears of letting go of/not obsessing over/not constantly trying to create the positive, to be able to see, realize and understand the freedom from bias as the desire for a positive experience and what is means to remain here as breath and stand as life

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to place myself effectively as required in my world, do my work, and walk away – without adding any extra value judgments as positive or negative to the experience, so that I am free to move from experience to experience without bias or resistance

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see how I am allowing the fear of loss to control, influence and direct me and the detrimental effects it is/will have on my well being and quality of life and future

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to make things out to be more positive than they are in fact by judging them/adding an extra positive value to them in my mind to cover up the fact/escape the reality of the fact that I am actually living in a world that is quite a mess which will require hard work, dedication, fearlessness and clarity to be able to sort out

I commit myself to stand without fear through stopping my participations in things that is based on fear as the desire to create a positive experience for myself

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that by attempting to create/attract/attain/experience the positive as I have defined it in my mind, I am in fact creating/attracting/attaining/experiencing the negative as that which I desire/have defined as positive is in fact based on fear and the desire to escape

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to look towards things, people, places and experiences which I have defined as positive to help me/save me from myself as the negative/fear that exist within me – not seeing, realizing or understanding that is useless and futile as it is only me who is able to support me and save me from myself

Thus I commit myself to, in the moments of feeling lonely and yearning for the positive as an experience or someone/something to save me, to stop, breathe, and even support myself with writing if necessary, so that I do not participate in this desire to experience the positive and I can be free to live without the dependency of having a mental energetic charge

I forgive myself that I’ve not accepted and allowed myself to see, realize and understand that if I do not stand absolute and alone in supporting myself to stop the addiction to the positive as the mind/a mental experience of myself through things/people/places/events/experiences which I have defined as positive in my world, I am useless to support another and I am useless in terms of having any opportunity to enjoy myself/my reality without bias

I commit myself to stop adding positive values to things in my world, and to stop chasing the things which I have already defined as positive so that I may learn to see that that which I have defined as positive which I have for so long believed and perceived I depend on in order to survive, is not real, and does not in fact support me but rather harms me and those around me as it is based in fear/fear of loss