Day 462: money and loss – self forgiveness

I haven’t blogged in a while but have been writing recently. I decided to share some self forgiveness I did tonight on the point of money. I am pushing myself to open the point of money in my life as it is a primary point of what is influencing who I am and how I live in this world.

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not having money and losing all of the things/dreams/experiences that could come with having a lot of money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting the girl I want because of money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not getting the card and house that I want because of money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear not eating the food I want or getting the health care I want because of money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear others not liking me because I don’t have enough money and therefore do not have enough status

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to fear others judging me as less than or inferior because I do not have enough money,

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to based my self value and self worth on money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have defined having money as being the only way that I can live the way I want to and have the kind of life that I want to

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to try and have as much money as possible to attain and maintain an energetic addiction that I refer to as ‘the perfect life’ which is having access to all the people/things/experiences that I could ever want that stimulate me and make me feel ‘more than’ the experience of inferiority that I have accepted and allowed within myself

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to have connected/made an association with money to everything in this world as the only possible means to experience it, and to fulfill a desire to have power and control over the ability to experience it

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to neglect others and myself because of money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want to be whatever personality type that will give me the best chance of making money or getting me closer to those who can help me make money, at my own expense and self compromise of living that which I know is best for self/all life

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to want others around me in my world to be what I want them to be in my life and have the kind of relationship with me that I want them to in order to give me the best chance at getting closer to having more money because it in some way boosts my ego/status/idea of myself

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to try and attempt to project myself as superior because I believe it will get me closer to money/making more money

I forgive myself that I’ve accepted and allowed myself to connect/associate high status in society/in the eyes of others with having a lot of money and success

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