Day 14 – Subjugating myself and others to my desires

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to place value on others purely based on how I as the mind am able to see their ability to serve me in feeding my energetic addiction and satisfying my desires

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to enslave others to my desires by purely seeing them as an energy source or a servant or a slave to feed my ego energy, and placing all value and creating all judgments and definitions of them based on this sole principle

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to place worth and value on others and their skills/abilities/attribute/characteristics/personalities based purely on how they are able to serve me and comply to me by feeding my addiction to energy

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that I as the world have created an entire system that do not value life in any way and rather only sees the human as a commodity whose only purpose is to serve the wants and desires of the greedy

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to want and desire to enslave others to my wants, needs and desires as my addiction to energy within the belief and perception that I am apparently having fun and enjoying myself or happy, when in fact I am only further deluding myself by reinforcing my addictions and diminishing who I am as life as I am purely reinforcing, feeding and sustaining a lifeless system that destroy myself and others as life in every way

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to lie to myself and deceive myself when using myself or others or animals or plants or other things to feed my desires, wants and needs as my addictions within the belief that I am having fun, happy and enjoying myself, when in fact I am only reinforcing self beliefs of inferiority, hopelessness and various fears through trying to escape them and within that, making the living statement that I am giving up, am not able to change and that my fears, self beliefs of inferiority and hopelessness are real and greater/more powerful than me

 

I commit myself to stop placing value on those around me, based purely on the potential I see to feed my desires as my addiction to energy, and accordingly create all definitions/ideas/perceptions/beliefs/values of others based on this sole principle

I commit myself to stop enslaving others to my desires to feed my energy addiction through expecting or convincing others to feed this energy addiction and using manipulation and suggestion to coerce them into doing such.

I commit myself to study myself and the world around me in self honesty sufficiently to see, understand and realize the connection between my own desires through which I bind and enslave myself and others and the world system of abuse where millions upon millions are enslaved in a system that feed the energetic desires of the rich and greedy such as myself and to see how I am directly contributing this abusive system, so that I may stop

I commit myself to self honestly investigate, realize and consider the belief that I am enjoying myself through feeding my energetic addictions is in fact an act of self deception, and learn what it means to actually enjoy self and live a fulfilled, dignified life when I am not dependent on happiness and enjoyment through the enslavement and subjugation of others

I commit myself to stop a lifestyle/pattern/habitual behavior of continuously giving up on myself and selling myself out within the belief that I require energy to live and feel good and enjoy myself, which is attained through experiences/relationships with others, specifically as the women in my life as romantic/sexual relationships

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