Day 10: Feeling overwhelmed and getting ahead of myself

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to become overwhelmed

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to list and think about all the things various things that ‘I must do’ as if my process is a chore or a task that must be completed as if I simply want to finish it and ‘get it over with’

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to ‘get ahead of myself’ by only thinking about what I want to do or feel I should do, and not actually simply sitting down in the moment and applying myself in whatever needs to be done

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to use the excuse that I don’t know what to do or how to do it

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to direct myself by simply applying myself in self writing by using the excuse of lostness

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to believe that what must be done is ‘too big’ and difficult and a struggle, and within this belief I believe that I am inferior and incapable of applying myself

I forgive myself that I’ve used self judgment as ‘being bad’ for not living up to my own unrealistic, self sabotaging expectations as a way to cut myself off from applying and living myself

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to be patient with myself in completing whatever task may be at hand, whether it be reading, writing, studying or anything

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to do whatever it takes to support the body to be able to be effective in my daily self application

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize the simplicity of and use the tool of breath, as a self support when my thoughts become overwhelming

I forgive myself that I’ve not allowed myself to realize that when I am overwhelmed with thoughts, I am not breathing, and that I can simply utilize breathing as a way to ground myself here and stop my mind from racing

I forgive myself that I’ve allowed myself to, within the experience of feeling overwhelmed, find and use excuses as ideas about why I can’t or should not apply myself

I commit myself to apply myself within my process daily and move myself through all resistances and thoughts and feelings of being overwhelmed

I commit myself to support myself when my thoughts become too much and I am overwhelmed, to stop and simply breathe and direct and ground that energy so that I may move myself

I commit myself to take my process one step at a time and stop the tendency to race and get ahead of myself, and realize and understand that I am able to apply myself in every moment and that life can only be lived and directed one moment at a time in simplicity, common sense and self honesty

I forgive myself to stop using excuses and justifications of apparently not being able to apply myself in process and prove to myself that I am able to move and apply myself consistently, moment by moment, breath by breath

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